Breakthru of my burden in Isha

Apr 4 Aft

P was so energised and so was C. When she was sharing, I realised she has become independent and stand on her own. Part of me feel sad cos I lost her. But now I am happy cos I know I can now cut the apron string.

With C, it was more because I know she is widow and now running business and I felt sorry she has to carry the load. I don't have to take her burden.

I volunteer out of responsibility, out of no choice. That's is why it has become a burden. All the while, I said I don't like to volunteer. I already carry loads, don't have to add on.

Now I know why I got the Burden card last week.

External influence
Past Lives
This is a wake-up call; the events in your life is trying to show u a pattern as ancient as the journey of ur own soul.

Soul
My karma of always auto-responsibility. I guess that the "mother" in me. I always believes power is responsibility and since I have the power, I have to be responsible. People said I am not "motherly", actually I am as I am service orientated. Perhaps that is why I am so against housekeeping which is an outward representation of being a mother.
Being a mother is a never-ending responsibility.
It was because I am a hidden mother that cannot let go of responsibility.


Finally I am out of the jail and I can now focus on my new job. I am also ready to let go of old job.

Father, I can finally see love falling from all sides.