Sadhguru - my Guru

May 12
Father, reading Sadhguru's book. Re-living my experience. A good one.

Enlightenment - Life the way it is
If in his presence, u don't know what to do, but still everything happens, then he is definitely guru

When that space or that energy which u refer to as Guru happens to u, it will overwhelm u. It will destroy u the way u r, so u become unbounded. U will become the way the Creator intended u to be.

When u experience the Divine within u, u definitely would not have any need to belong to any group. U just exist here as life. Life is sufficient unto itself. If u sit here, this being is sufficient.

Soul
I bought my new car. Of course mom and so does most people is worried about me handling a big car.
I admit I am not great but my sense of coordination have improved loads since I did yoga. When I was driving Teana, I felt comfortable. I will be fine.
I deserve and can take a luxury car.

Sadhguru
If the fear of suffering is taken away, u would give urself absolutely to everything around u.
This way, u would love more.

(23 May - very true. Now that I know my point of security on our relationship is the reverse from Z. I can now love him freely.)


Soul
MD said whenever I speaks of E, my's eyes water and I said he has done so much. I said he takes on everything, he carries everyone's responsibility.

Father, suddenly it occurs to me that I projected my suffering on him. I carried so much responsibilities. And I was overwhelmed and I projected it on him. Anyway, now that I have released my role in Isha, things are much better. I m also going to release old company. I also found out that Germany has designated me or E as the main approval authority.

My new notebook will only have 1 outlook for new company. The old company email will be mapped to new company email.

I also got my old company chair to new company. So, everything will settle down next week. My new Billing gal would start on 21 May. Things are falling into place

Father, on purging. I have recently stopped purging after I decided to leave my role in Isha. Either that or because I don't do breathing meditation and hence body less pure and less receptive.