Settling down on my ending with Isha

Apr 16

Father, woke up and did my practices. Suria was lovely. These days I knew that even if my mind doesn't like it, my body likes suria. It was quite effortless with a few laughter along the way. I noted that I can now ignore my tots if I want to.

I am glad I lost my reservation with Z. We had a lovely and fun conversations. As usual, he was teasing me and we both laughed over it.

On Isha, I have no regrets stopping. Its like I fell out of love. Only thing left is I do wonder how others feel or think about me. I know it is not easy to shoulder the event. But perhaps it is difficult for me but easy for them.
As for C and P, who knows, M and me leaving, is perhaps similar to the cranes.

Evening
Father, LK tot that I just wanted a one week break. She tot I was shaken by C coming to leadership. I was the one who brought her to limelight cos I wanted her to be Isha speaker. I wanted to go into background. But when LK suggested on me leading IK session, I admit I was stirred, more to prove a point,...luckily moments later I come to my senses and told her nope. I needed a break. Actually, the truth is I needed an ending.

Today, I reach home around 8 pm and my family said I was early. They said they seldom sees me. I m glad of ending with Isha, spending time with family is my Top 5.

Diamond Heart - 1
When u allow urself to be vulnerable, the compassion center open.

Soul
Tot of me and Sl. The over-riding irritation is gone ever since I myself was caught in a dilemma over ending Isha. I knew I was not happy and yet I hold on. Now I develop compassion for her and me.

Diamond Heart 1
Love alone sometimes isn't enough to engender trust, but when a person has kindness and compassion, we respond with trust. What this means is that the green center of the other person has activated ur own green center. If a person is compassionate toward u, u trust him. Trust and compassion come from the same center.

When u allow urself compassion in the heart, the head center opens automatically. They become one center, and there is rest in the mind. There is no questioning or doubt. When fear is gone, the solar plexus is more open, and the will is there, giving support and confidence.