Settling down with my ending with Isha

Apr 17 Eve

Father, yday a msg from LK and today a call from A. With LK, I don't feel guilty cos she was not brought in by me and she knew my feeling. With A, she is new and she got excited partly due to me. So, bit of dilemma going on when she said that I made the meeting fun.

So, feeling bit of dilemma. Then C sms me back but I was able to ignore her cos both she and P has become independent, I need not feel guilty.

Now I understand this week Osho card
4. What is needed for resolution?
Politics
Politicians don't have real faces. The whole game is a lie. Take a good look at urself to see if u have been playing this game. What u see might be painful but not as painful as continuing to play. It doesn't serve anybody's interest in the end, least of all yours.

Soul
This is not easy. I tot of SL, I must end it for both of us. I know that if I go back in, I be unhappy. Now I just need to work on feeling of guilt and regret that I cannot go back. This is so timely, I was made to experience similar situation as SL so that my irritation with her is gone. Now I understand the dilemma that she faces.

So, SL not only provide support for my work but also on my departure from Isha. Just like I helped her to depart from her boss, she too helped me in my departure from Isha.

Suddenly I tot of my this year Displacement in Ruling - Ace of Heart
This is a year when ur own personal satisfaction in love matters will assume a greater importance in ur life. Just what will best satisfy ur yearning for affection will come into focus. U also have a restlessness on the emotional level, one probably due to some dissatisfaction with ur current emotional environment. This may precipitate new love affairs or even the birth of a child.
This year marks the beginning of a new way of loving yourself. Our relationships always reflect how we love ourselves, so expect some new experiences.
U will probably need more time to urself to sort out ur feelings, inner drives and motivation. Self-expression can play a key role in allowing u to find the answers u seek from inside.


Soul
I love myself and hence I cannot go back to Isha.
Coincidentally, this msg same as this week's Guidance.