Still on my Isha practices

Apr 25

Father, I woke up drowsy and was pondering not to do my practices as I seems to be tired. Then a tot came, u always feel better after ur practices. I also remember about my RA. Tot that perhaps what P said about my drive being focused on yoga and now that I need to focus back on work, the drive for yoga has waned.
Who knows, perhaps yoga was a way for me to excel, to show off. Now that my work is the new platform, my drive waned for yoga.

But in midst of all this dramas, I remember my RA again.
So, I persevere and start my practices. At first tot of doing asanas as suria seems bit daunting. After guru pooja, I stand up and immediately suria happens. To my surprise I was quite agile and I start to laugh throughout the 12 cycles. I am glad I did my practices.

I felt much better. I also know I m buying the VW Golf TSI. I know I will be able to settle the car within 3 years. My Honda will be able to get for 30k, I will pay 30k, so left 100k to be paid in 3 years. I can pay an instalment for 3.5k.

Like C said, people without money buys without thinking and here I have money but need to ponder. Anyway, finances settled. I m not sure where this is heading but somehow I knew it is right.

I just tweeted; When u r secure, u can live fearlessly.

Now me with Z. I am secure that he wants me and he doesn't want me to go. As for commitment, he is committed to me. As for marriage, he still has not changed his mind on having a traditional marriage with children, something that I m not keen on.