Slowly losing dilemma on losing Isha

Apr 2 Eve

Father, the cage is open. Once I decided that my priority is my work, I can let go of Isha. And my priority is myself. Dilemma costs suffering.

Just now I have a chat with E. He is supportive and I can do what I can. I am also fine with doing my staff's reporting.

This whole day, my msg to P is about not joining Isha.

Hi. I may not be able to come this Friday. Got loads to do and also my new gal last day is on Friday.

Reply from P;
Ok noted..

P later called for meeting this evening and I told her nope. I just came out from 3 hours concall. I cannot manage. That time I just want to go back to rest. Later I realised I had an important report on-going from my staff. I stayed back with them till 9 pm.

I got back and I msg P again.
I just got back from office half an hour ago. Back to back concall and reports. Maybe cannot make it for tomorrow cos Wed is important meeting.

P's reply;
Still at C... You do what you have to dear...

My reply;
Honestly I am feeling overwhelmed with so many things. I must remember to take care of my health. Otherwise RA will be triggered.

Father, yea. Just pulled out. No dilemma now that I have prioritised myself.

Honestly the new Ashram teacher also doesn't impress me. My first impression, a beautiful gal. She is a junior.

Trust teacher to send someone like her, totally no threat to her and also won't be able to detect the under-currents nor to ask about issues in Pg.