No more trying to fulfill my Inner Judge - its ok make mistakes

Apr 17 Aft

Father, at first was thinking how can I go for medical check up with E coming. Anyway, so happen he calls and I just tell him that I will be away whole day tomorrow cos 1st half taking the test and 2nd half in old company. He cared enough to ask, not sure if he knew what is RA.

I am pleased with myself. I managed to extrapolate the quarterly Sales comm template into monthly basis and the figures ties.

His mgm style is to throw you into the sea, u either sink or swim. Mmm, I guess that's what Sl does too. For me, I guide and support people along the way.

At first, I was not confident and try to reach out to him. Later, I got hold of myself, imagine E is not around and I am the Head, so I need to make the decision and I just did.

I already got L and Z and now slowly A. Next will be K.

1. The Issue
Guidance
The angelic figure with rainbow-coloured wings on this card represent the guide that each of us carries within. Like the second figure in the background, we may sometimes be a little reluctant to trust this guide when it comes to us, because we r so accustomed to taking our cues from the outside rather than from the inside.

When this card appears, it means u can trust the inner guidance u r being given. It speaks in whispers and sometimes we hesitate, not knowing if we have understood rightly. But the indications are clear; in following the inner guide, u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u r moving outwards from the very center of ur being. If u go with it, this beam of light will carry u exactly where u need to go.

Soul
Well, it is now giving me messages on why I need to end with Isha, the institute. And looks like with the release of Isha, I am happier and have time to focus on new company. Since I am happier, I can do the new role smoothly. The feeling of being overwhelm is gone. I now look forward to new things. I am no longer afraid of possibility of not being successful, of being found lacking now that I am being tested.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Participation
There is so much joy around u, all around, u have just to be aware of it and to become a participant and not a spectator

U have an opportunity to participate with others now to make ur contribution to creating something greater and more beautiful than each of u could manage alone. Ur participation will not only nourish u, but will also contribute something precious to the whole.

Soul
I have been a spectator. I was afraid of losing comforts, I was afraid of being judged lacking and I was afraid of losing Isha.
Well, now that I have prioritise and let go of Isha, I can do my Top 5.
Next month will be the Mgm meetup again and this time I am ready and will build the rship with them.
I know I have a role to play here. I know my values and I know I will be appreciated.

I want to join the potential client pitch presentation.

3. External influence
Creativity
Whatsoever you do, if u do it joyfully, u do it lovingly, if ur act of doing is not purely economical, then it is creative.
If u have something growing out of it within u, if it gives u growth, it is spiritual, it is creative, it is divine.

Technique, expertise and knowledge are just tools; the key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things. It makes no difference what particular form ur creativity takes. The important thing is to be open to what wants to be expressed.
Remember we don't possess our creations; they do not belong to us. True creativity arised from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.

Soul
I just did the Sales comm template. I was surprised at myself for doing it quite effortlessly within short time. I got it right first time.
Even my approach on fee nego for a client, the idea just came.
I always have a talent for my role. Work has always come easy to me. Let me appreciate it too.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Politics
Politicians don't have real faces. The whole game is a lie. Take a good look at urself to see if u have been playing this game. What u see might be painful but not as painful as continuing to play. It doesn't serve anybody's interest in the end, least of all yours.

Soul
No more dilemma. No more trying to be all. No more trying to fulfill my inner Judge. It is impossible.

5. The Understanding
Abundance
In one hand, Zorba holds a lotus, showing that he respects and contains within himself the grace of the feminine. His exposed chest (open heart) and relaxed belly show that he is at home with his masculinity as well, utterly self-contained.

If u r a woman the King of Rainbow brings the support of ur own male energies into ur life, a union with the soul mate within.

Soul
Amen.


The Inner Journey
The more harmonious the personality, the more music is arising within, the deeper u can descend. The more disharmony there is within the more u will remain shallow, the more u will remain on the surface.