Slowly overcoming dilemma in leaving Isha

Apr 14 Eve

Father, I was surprised that Pe understand my situation and she too concur with Z to cut off my entanglement with Isha. Like Z, she also said no point for me to continue with Isha. I would be making a mockery if I am serving out of guilt.

I told Pe that I was afraid not only the loss of friendship but also the teaching. Others are already making a mockery of it and I don't want to do a disservice to the Tool that has given me my freedom and my joy. She said Isha is just a foundation make up of people and my having gained from the Tool is because I resonate with the path, not because anyone gave anything to me.

Nine of Heart
It is entirely possible that u have outgrown some friendships and that now is the time to let them go. See these endings as completions and let go willingly, if that is what being called for by the situation. New and better rship is around the corner.

Five of Spades
Changes that happen now may happen unexpectedly and may leave u feeling somewhat insecure or unsettled. These changes are most likely overdue and beneficial in many ways.

Displacement in Destiny
Nine of Diamond
Something is ending this year and it is up to u as to whether this becomes a tragedy or a cause for celebration as u graduate from this level to move on to the next.

How u handle this ending will determine ur level of happiness this year. The best attitude is one of giving up and letting go, knowing that u r not losing anything that is actually good for u anymore. As a matter of fact, this year is the preparation for a new life just about to begin.
This new life will be one that is more healthy and full of new and pleasant surprises for u. So, embrace the endings that occur this year with joy. U have come a long way to get where u r, and u will lose nothing that is truly yours.

Soul
Father, let me accept the ending. If P and C is my true friend, they will remain firm. If not, then we r just members of Isha.

Father, I am thinking of getting a new car. I don't mind it being second hand. I want to spend below 100k. I am now looking at Nissan Syphly, Peugeout or even local assembled Passat. Somehow, I am not keen on Honda anymore. I know I don't want Toyota.
Also, I suddenly got a call that I have 9k FD in a bank and there another net 9k from back pay, so nearly 20k. I can pump in another 50k. So, financing at 50k only.

A story just came to me. The dancer in the korean drama. As a dancer in the troupe, they also has to be prostitute and to dance in certain ways. She stayed in unwillingly because of her love for the dance. In the end she came out of the troupe and dance her own with joy.

Just like me, coming out from Isha, just meditating on my own with joy. Isha taught me the tool for my path in meditation. Now I just need to continue the path on my own. Amen. I found my peace.