Isha has become like a little kingdom, the teacher becomes the King

Mar 27 Eve

Father, there is another dimension to the Osho cards.

1. Issue - Rebel
2. Internal Influence - Breakthru
3. External - Laziness
4. What to do? - Burden
5. Resolution - Control

When I saw the event detailed task, I tot of M of Pg to handle Sadhguru. We chatted and she also can't do it. Then we chat on volunteers and I told her we r really shorthanded and all our volunteer are 'new' and young. Most of them never even been to Ashram. Then she asked about Pg's volunteers and I told her there is none. She said that cannot be as there was 40 volunteers who signed up for Isha Kriya session. But I told her we have asked many times are there is none except for 4 persons and so far they r not volunteering and is in charge of website registration.

She was so surprised and I said we didn't receive any email from the Isha M mail. She said all Pg volunteer was supposed to email to N only. She don't recall receiving the other Isha M email. Then it occur to me, it is possible that that Isha M email was only sent to Isha K mail. Teacher has deliberately blocked communication to Pg. No wonder N didn't dare to reply on any emails on volunteers. He replied all mails and created many mails but exclude the volunteer mail. Now I know why it was always teacher who replied. It was because N don't dare to reply as he did receive the volunteer listing. If this is true, the teacher has really done something unspeakable. No wonder, when I asked for Pg volunteers to be trained for IK, she quickly replied before N and said nope.

I cried just now as I can't imagine such evil play at work. Father, all the while I have heard about Pg's issue but I don't get involved as I don't want to be in. I just focus on K

Perhaps everything is meant to happen. She triggered me to split with her. And when I saw how helpless P and C is, I just don't have the heart to leave them. I told M that yday all 3 of us feel like crying as we can't shoulder all the responsibility ourselves. There is no 'old' volunteers that can support us.

And when I heard how disheartened the Pg team has become - divide and conquer, it made me more determined to open the Pg's channel. As expected, M reverted that Pg's volunteer are now so frightened and want to go thru proper channel.

Suddenly a tot occur to me. I can attend the IK session in Pg. Mmm, I wonder if teacher will be there as she is now in Sg. She may make a trip down.
Anyway, in there, I will intro myself as sathsang guide from K and I am part of the main committee for Sadhguru's event. I implore them to volunteer as we r really short handed. So far we have less than 5 volunteers from Pg, who are the volunteers on Pg's sathsang.
This will definitely open up and I can sought for registration openly.

Aiyah, focus on my well being and things will flow. Father, I leave this to u. What I know is my role is to smoothen the process. My role is to provide service. Amen.

Such irony, I am supposed to get out of leading K and now I am taking over Pg as well. K will really laugh at me.

(My mind working overtime trying to be something)