When u feel ur pain, you can feel compassion for yourself and others

Apr 7 Eve

Father, when C stop me from doing IK, I felt a moment of anger and attacking tots came in. But I asked for alternative and it dispersed.

Father, new teacher asked me to hold on till after Sadhguru's visit. I told her that I am afraid it doesn't end there. Every time I want to end, another thing crop up.
She then said I got so much benefits and etc and Sadhguru's being here will reach more people. I told her the guilt no longer works on me. I am now here to help friends out.

Today I saw another email which teacher excluded me. I immediately asked P if she is out-casting me. Both N and teacher work together.

I was surprised but I am no longer hurt by their rejection. I already excluded them. I can see it as Universe helping me to get out.

Father, Z and I are getting comfortable in thinking of each other as boyfriend and girlfriend.

Diamond Heart - 1
Most of u who have learned to experience compassion have seen that it usually opens when u allow urself to experience pain, and that pain usually comes by seeing the truth about urself or ur situation.
When u see the truth, u feel hurt and when u allow urself to feel the hurt, compassion comes. If u don't allow urself to feel hurt, u can't feel compassion. That's how our organism functions.

When we work on our unconscious, finding the truth means finding out what is actually there, discovering our actual beliefs, our unconscious motivations, and conflicts.

First we see the truth of our defenses, the lies we believe in. We see that they exist, and we begin to identify them. Through observing our lies, we can see the deficiencies we feel underneath the lies. We discover how often we consciously believe the opposite of our unconscious beliefs and feelings.

We unconsciously feel we r weak, and so we create a lie in the form of belief that we r strong. Because we may even believe that we feel strong, it will be difficult to uncover the feeling of weakness. It is important that compassion to be present for that to happen.