Not used to be unknown...not valuable

Apr 30 aft
Father, I am feeling bit stressed as today is my Reporting Temp last day and there is no Temp.

But I am better than I should be. Father, I am feeling bit off. I know I got to stick with this job as this is a growing phase for me and also I got in SL and this would be for long haul. I promised SL that I will be here for 3 years. And the Nissan Teana is a sweetener. Am I just stressed cos I do find myself get excited but not sure lah.

1. Issue
Politics
The whole game is a lie. Take a good look at urself to see if u have been playing this game. What u see might be painful, but not as painful as continuing to play.

Soul
Perhaps its because I see myself not so performing n yet I don't want to stretch myself. I don't know lah. Sometimes, I cannot trust myself.
I think I am just not comfortable being at bottom, being unknown.

2. Internal influence
Morality
Unless awareness arises in u, all ur morality is bogus, all ur culture is simply a thin layer which can be destroyed by anybody.

The Queen of Clouds lurks in the minds of all of us who have been brought up with rigid ideas of good and bad, sinful and virtuous, acceptable and unacceptable.
And whether our judgements are applied to ourselves or to others, they keep us from experiencing the beauty and godliness that lies within. Only when we break through the cage of our conditioning and reach the truth of our own hearts can we begin to see life as it really is.

Soul
Suddenly I know why. I am not excelling anywhere. I used to excel in old company and also volunteering. I had to give up both, to do new company and yet I don't excel, I got nothing to show.

So, don't be too hard on myself.

3. External influence
The Creator
The real creator works on himself, his own being. Drop the idea of becoming someone, because u r already a masterpiece. U cannot be improved. U have only to come to it, to know it, to realise it.

The King of Fire tells us that anything that we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives of others.

Soul
I know I am meant to be here. Its true I can't excel, but this is set up time and my team is not in yet. Give myself 3 more months till end July.

Yea, today I seems to be on 'confusing mode', looks bad, don't know my area, not influencing and etc.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Completion
All answers are incomplete. The master has only given u a direction. By the time u reach the limit, u will know what is going to remain.
In the finishing, we can either be in despair, because we don't want the situation to come to an end, or we can be grateful and accepting of the fact that life is full of endings and new beginnings.

Soul
Yea, my days of glory in old company and Isha has ended. Now I need to get my hands dirty to give what I can. I am a Turnaround Agent. I can do this.


5. Past Lives
While it might be entertaining to fantasise about famous past lives; it is just a distraction. The real point is to see and understand the karmic patterns of our lives.

This is a wake-up call; the events in ur life are trying to show u a pattern as ancient as the journey of ur own soul.

Soul
What I resist is growth. Somehow I am pushed into growth mode. I resist growth cos there is a down phase. There is a phase where I feel like a failure and I don't like to fail.


I just need to remember I am a Queen. Buying Nissan Teana will give me that. I don't have to hide anymore.