Settling down with my mind

Apr 30

Father, I slept early and woke up 4.05 am to do my practices. Suria was fine and shakti and shambavi too, I complete at 6.30 am since I didn't doze and also I have been reducing my breathing meditation.

Had some tot on the purchase of car. Whether I should buy a cheaper smaller version, whether I can handle the big car. The answer is I have always like the car, it was instant love but I always tot it was way beyond my budget. Alas, I can afford to pay 50% down payment and settle in 2 to 3 years.


Father, on work load. There is things I know I want to do but I will take it easy till my team is here. E is demanding but he is a real workaholic and I won't follow his pace. But what I am willing to do is delayed lunches. I miss my shoonya for one week. Next trip, I will do it in the spare room. I need my meditation just like he need his cigarettes.

On Z, I am glad he msg me yday that he is already back. It was nice spending my family to a good dinner. We all enjoyed it.

The Inner Journey
A sage is a third type of person. The journey of a seeker is not one of becoming a good man; the journey of a seeker is one of becoming a sage.
So, do not decide that a tot which is arising in the mind is good or bad. Don't condemn or appreciate. Just sit on the side of the stream of the mind, as if u r sitting on the bank of a river and indifferently watching the flow.

Soul
I told sis I was worried about the parking. She told me it will take time. Initially she also had some difficulty with her new Mazda but it is fine now.

The Inner Journey
1. Tremendous fearlessness in encountering the mind.
2. No restrictions, no conditions on the mind
3. No judgements about whatsoever tots and longing that arise in the mind. Ur attitude should simply be indifferent.

As u listen totally, the continuous movement of tots within u will become absolutely silent - because both of these things cannot happen simultaneously.
If the energy of the mind which usually goes into thinking starts flowing into other stream, then tots will automatically become weak.

Soul
Samyama. When I become aware of my tots, I do realise it lessen.

The Inner Journey
Tots have no life of their own. The more attention u give to a tot, the more alive it becomes. The more u remove ur attention, the more dead it becomes. If attention is totally withdrawn, then tots become lifeless: they die, they disappear immediately.