Settling down with Z

Apr 10
Father, I am a Queen. U can't have 2 queen in a kingdom. Since she was the official one, I back off.

Yea, C didn't reply. Probably busy. Z also didn't reply. Mmm, he said he was going to K to seal the land deal.

Yea, let's remember how far Z and I have come. We have settle down. Don't let my fear of losing Isha's friends to question my rship with Z.

Father, deep down I am an just an insecure person, looking for love. I am loved by myself. I have touched the inner joy in me and it is flowing. Like Sadhguru said, I don't have to compare. I don't have to be the Isha's norm. What I have to be is just myself. Isha is part of me but I need to disentangle myself, knowing that it is ok. For now, I want to focus on new job and I am excited about it.

Apr 10 Eve
Father, I had a nice dinner today, at a roof top restaurant in a posh hotel. But I wish Z was there. I just send him a msg. I don't know what is the outcome but I love him. And I will lead the way since I love him. He already doesn't show much and if I wait for him, then we won't move. So, just focus on the moment that he is my boyfriend.

While I don't know the outcome, I trust that as of now, he is with me only, just like I am with him.
I love him. I don't think he love me yet but at the moment he is there for me to love.

Yea, such irony. After a hard day work and a good dinner with good companionships, I still want to be with Z. I like sleeping with him and waking up beside him.