A light, my friend decides to come on board new company

Apr 1

Father, I woke up at 6.30 am. Body was good but mind was not. Somehow it just felt rebellious and don't want to do anything. So, I lay back and slept till 9 am. Woke up more lethargic and I had a shower. Tot of the shopping that I need to do, wallet, washing cream and body lotion. Then I told myself don't feel so overwhelm.

I guess I am feeling overwhelmed by my work. Tot of how I want to position SL. She has to do BA and oversees the FM. Actually that would be better. The FM role is easier. BA roles is more difficult and would need her time and attention. The FM role requires little attention. And I think the FM can also send billing instruction and etc. Also I can see that while JV can do his part, his thinking mind is not that great and our BA will only be mediocre. So, instead of having a junior, I might as well get a Snr. Just msg SL on my proposal.

A tot occur to me. Instead of thinking of my loss of comfort, of independence and etc, I tot of E. He really needs helps. Of all the persons, he should be the one who complains most. He did everything, from billing to contract to collection to financial reporting to business reporting.

I m going to shop for Z's wallet and my body lotion. He is my priority.

I am feeling better now. Just work on streamlining cos in the end I am the Commercial Head. I don't have to tell E what I can do. I will just have to streamline and be the best. No need to overwhelm myself with future plans.

Early this week, I saw my Breakthru card that said the dark night has to be passed through before I see the light. And the nearer the light, the darker the night. I tot how could it be, I am fine.

Towards the mid of week, I felt so overwhelmed and by Friday, I was ready to throw the towel. Then on Friday evening, suddenly receives call from SL on her resignation.