Projections takes away objectivity....things become unreal

Apr 30 Eve

Father, once I decided to get over my past victory, I was able to review the file with Ze and made some contribution. We finally finalise it together.

Had a chat with Z and I told him that my brother also didn't want to carry his mobile during weekend. We chatted. I told him he would have challenges in rship this year and he immediately tot of his ex. He also told me his mom advise him not to be angry with his wife.
This time when he joke about money again. I responded that it comes with commitment.

The Diamond Heart 1
Objectivity is an important quality of Essence itself; seeing truth as it is - not according to our desires, beliefs or emotions. The existence of the personality as a whole depends upon non-objectivity. A one particular mechanism that sustains the illusion of personality is projection.
Projection is one of the main defenses we use to avoid seeing the truth inside us. Projection is usually seen in terms of negative emotion - hostility, anger, fear, jealousy, things like that.
For instance, a paranoid person who appears to be scared of other people is not really scared of other people. He is angry and hostile. But instead of seeing the anger and hostility in himself, he sees it outside in other people. He thinks other people wants to kill him and so he is scared of them. The truth is that he actually has murderous feelings toward them and toward himself.
This is projection, displacing what is inside u, to the outside. Clearly, if u see something as outside that actually exists within u, u can't be objective. Our projections determine many of our actions, our feelings and even our life plan.

When u r projecting, u r acting at the pre-verbal, pre-conscious level. Ur mind isn't even involved in it; it just happen. That's why we take our experience to be reality - because we cannot distinguish what is inside from what is outside.

Soul
I normally get angry when I sense people restricting my freedom, preventing me from behind myself; which is an issue of authority.
Yea, it was I who is restricting myself to be who I am, the good and the bad.
I do like luxury goods but I said no to myself because I fear the loss of security in money.
Mmm, I gave total freedom for food and nil for capital commitment.

Isha represents to me restriction. And since I am already restricting myself, it felt double.

Mmm, a tot came. I love Z because he gave me freedom. He allows me to be myself.