Seeing opportunity in new company - with ex-boss's help

Mar 30 Aft
Father, again today very late lunch. Now after 3 pm, waiting for my lunch. Father, at least I know I am no longer so attached to food. What is more important is my peace of mind.

Father, E is really on over-drive. I am not sure if I want to be in such a furious pace. While I think I have a role to play but this really too much. I wonder whether this will push me into early retirement. SS was really wrong. He said nothing for me to do but there are so many things. I really don't know how E can handle it.
Just now when he want to hand me new things. I told him that I am not that smart, I won't be able to take in another new thing.


Mar 30 Eve
Father, I had drinks with ex boss, J. She was sharing that she doesn't know what she wants and she doesn't want anything to do with her industry. I told her that she is limiting herself. She doesn't know what she wants and yet she doesn't want anything that she knows. Then nothing can happen.

I am not sure, suddenly an insight flash thru. On one hand I am excited about the prospect of growing the new company but I don't like the pace and definitely doesn't like the billings and reporting and etc. Part of me just want to quit and run. I just want to be left to myself.
Then an insight occur to me, what I like is the operations and selecting and growing people. What I dislike is the reporting. Then perhaps I can get SL to manage the rest while I focus on the operations. This would then be a total departure my current line.
J thinks that's a good idea. J told me that one of the council member commented that I am very good.
Part of me is afraid of making the move but the other part of me doesn't want to stay.

Internal Influence
Breakthrough
It is the greatest adventure in life to go through a breakdown consciously. It is the greatest risk because there is no guarantee that the breakdown will become a breakthrough.

The dawn is not far away, the dark night has to be passed through. And as the dawn comes closer, the night will become darker.

All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough". And at such times, it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turn out to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy itself.