Anything that disturbs you has mastery over you

Jun 4 eve
Father, I lost bit of faith in my Osho tarot cards ever since I lost Z.
Somehow, I m getting less attuned to it or rather I interpret it less slowly this few weeks. It still holds true. Guess I didn't like the msg.

Guess this is the same mode I experience with my practices a few months back when I lost Z. But I have recovered my practices and now even have Surya kriya.

Yea. I can see the msg, I just don't know how it can be done. Anyway, I on sick leave today.

As I observed my brother with his children, with his own creation. I can see why Z wants children. Whereas I have never tot of them. Aiyah, let go. I truly have loads of love in my life. I found my joy. Just remember my lesson - I don't need a Soul mate. It was my Past that needed Soul mate.

Most and More
The proof of right living is in the peace that u experience. Habits disturb ur peace and hence all habits are wrong. Will Power is developed through Won't Power.
The next time u don't get something when u want it, and it disturbs u, understand it has gained mastery over u.
Everything that comes into our life should either stay with us and become our strength or it should leave us and make us free. It should never stay and become our weakness.

Soul
Suddenly I recalled how I overcome my issue with reporting. Just like I given power over my dislike of reporting. The same goes for my dislike of not having a partner.

Father, thank you for the answer.