North node in 11th house - New Age

Jun 24
Father, I woke up 4.30 am. Menses finally came after a week delay. It is understandable as I was faced with much stress over Z's wedding. It is over and I m now going with the flow.

This morning I woke up 4.30 am. Did 5 cycles of Surya kriya. It was a lovely practice and I went in deep. Both feet touches the ground a few times. I m feeling something for breathe fluttering posture. Towards the end, laughter escaped.
Did a quick Shavasana as I was not tired. Breathing was good, just watching my breathe and going with the flow.
Shakti was great and I went in deep from the breathing. Even the 4252 for Kapala Bhakti was also good. Somehow I can do it the right way.
Shambavi was good.
Towards the end, a peaceful  silence descends. All clearing been done. I also cut my hair yesterday.
I feel renewed today.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
They need to make a choice; personal, ego-centred life vs impersonal dedication to humanity. When they choose to focus on personal life, they lose; when they choose impersonal dedication to humanitarian causes, they win - and the personal life they always longed for is magically added!

Soul
Mmm, Isha volunteering is with me. I even need to lead most times. I used to resent being a Sathsang guide but I accepted my role.
Last week volunteer meeting was small and cosy. It is not the quantity but quality that matters. For the first time I understand "putting others above ourself"; providing voluntary services for others.

Father, as I read this I can't help thinking Z is so far away from his North Node in Aquarius. The glimmer of good I saw in him was actually in me. I am much more reflective of North node in Aquarius than Z. The main part Z fulfils is the need for more and more to seek approval from others and resulted in him spending beyond his means. Now I know why I skipped it.

What I love was the possibility of him and what got me hooked was our physical connection and my fear of abandonment. I tot our communication was good but alas it was proven wrong by the ending. I can't ask and he can't tell. So, no true communication.
He was truly my mirror.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
These folks may have tough time hearing feedback in a constructive way, but they are learning to see the larger view.
For example, if they write children's stories, they first find out which publishers are interested in what kind of story. If they receive rejection slip, they should find out what the publisher needs and tailor their creative product to fit.
Moreover, they are recognising that they can't take credit for their ideas anyway, because none of them are truly "theirs"! New Age, innovative ideas are floating in the air, and Aquarius north nodes' gift is their "antenna" are tuned to the right frequency to pick them up.
Recognising this release their fears of both success and failure, because their ideas really have nothing to do with them personally. Their job is simply to "pick up" the idea and transmit them to others.

Soul
Exactly. I have fears of both success and failure.
So, this further reaffirm my path of keeping my part time corporate job to provide financial security and my website is my services to humanity. And I am just a "compiler" and "applicator" of ideas. I shared because I needed the release. So win win situation. Even if no one ever reads, I still need to share for my own release. Amen.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
These folks have access to inner knowledge that helps free people. This, when their intention is to empower others,  the motive is so clear that the necessary Ideas just "come through" - intuitively, or from other people.

Soul
I always know I m a good filter and applicator and part of me wish that others have access to the knowledge that I have gathered. I want to help others save time, accelerate their inner journey.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
Life is like a boomerang. When they use their creative energy to help others, whatever they need comes back to help them.
There is great power for these folks in altruism. When the ego is not involved and they are not personally invested in the results, its easy for them to be creatively involved. Self-gain will be a natural product. The Universe keeps filling them up because they're passing on the benefits of their creative energy to others.


Soul
My Jupiter is Nine of Hearts and my Cosmic Reward is Nine of Diamonds. My Venus is Three of Spades. My Neptune is Queen of Spades. All points to me compiling and sharing my inner journey via website.

I finally overcome my Saturn in Seven of Clubs and Cosmic Lesson of Seven of Spades.