Happiness is back

Jun 14
This morning I had a major nose block and was unwilling to wake up. Anyway, woke up at 7.30 am. Did 5 cycles of Surya kriya, my left feet is nearly touching the ground. The position of feet also got better. Towards end of fifth cycle, bubble of laughter erupted from me. Shavasana was good.
Shakti was good and I only rest once. Can now do stable Kapala Bhakti with the correct sound and timing.
Shambavi was great.
Towards the end I was singing and dancing once again. I felt my happiness is back.
Did my closing invocation and when I was saying my prayer of thanks, I suddenly cried. I am so thankful to Sadhguru for giving me the practices. It has saved me. I don't know the future but the practices keep me grounded. Keep me sane and happy.
There were little tots and no tots of Z during the practices.
But in the finale when I was singing love song, I know I love him. He is absent but my love is.

Father, m feeling lazy today. Just want to sit and do nothing. Internet also not good, make me even more restless.

Father, I was reading my old blog back when we had the Tamil IE with T. He asked me to contain the laughing, dancing and singing. Pull the energy inward instead of outward. When I contained it, I experienced my first bliss.

Will remember to contain and see where it brings me.