Grateful that my Cosmic Lesson is over

Jun 16 aft
Before I had a nap, tot of Jack of Clubs in Pluto this year - dishonesty by someone I know - Z was a Jack of Diamond and he was dishonest with me.

Just woke up fresh from a good afternoon nap. My first tot, I m glad that I don't have children and I can rest whenever I want to; I can do alone time. With Z, I can't have this. Thank God my Cosmic lesson is over.

I had a dream of orgasm, can understand. Father, my Ace of Diamonds Ruling, desire for love and money is true. I recalled my Natal chart's mantra was I have an abundance of fabulous money and orgasm. Hahaha.

Father, I m still looking at my mind. I had a tot I need not activate it always. It is to be used by me; not the mind using me. I begin to question tots in my mind, tots of Z does come in intermittently but I didn't dwell on it.

A show on Transformer. Faith is translated into confidence. Father, cosmic lesson with Z is over. I admitted part of me feared the price to pay of having him. Z knew that I didn't want to pay the price of children and financial insecurity.  But I tot I have to pay in return for a partner. You have lifted it out. Amen.

My mom told me I started on milk with coffee when I was eight months cos I puke on milk alone. When I turned one plus, it was just plain diluted black coffee sweetened with bit of sugar. So, no wonder coffee is my Top 5, especially black coffee. Until now I still purge on milk.