My True Love is within

Jun 26
Woke up 7.25 am on alarm. Had a good rest. Surya kriya was good. I can already breathe well on back bending posture and now need to work on breathe fluttering. I also need to work on my feet, way out.
After Shavasana, I did my breathing meditation. It was really good. Just focusing on my breathe and silence. So peaceful. I stayed for quite awhile. Wish I could stay more but I still got Shakti and Shambavi to do.
Shakti was in another dimension. Once I got into 4252 I was in deep. Breathe happens by itself. I did a small dosage of Kapala Bhakti as menses is ending. After three years I can finally experience the potency of Shakti. My feet no longer as cramped.

Shambavi was good too. Towards the end, gulp of air escaped from my stomach. Perhaps all those years of suppression. And then silence for awhile.
Suddenly love song erupted from me. Then I cried as I feel my heart, my True love is within me.
I cried when I said my prayer of thanks to Father, Sadhguru, Masters, Osho and Vijii. Thanks for all the tools I have received. Thanks for bringing me to Now. I also thank myself for making the inner journey.
A lovely peaceful silence. I stayed for quite along while.

Father, some tots of Z comes in. All are extrapolation of Past. I looked and asked my mind to give me new ones. It just evaporate. It can't give me new ones. I can't rely on my mind.

Just did all my volunteering mail. Things are falling in place, just when I decided I will do what is needed. Isha is in me. I just took charge. No more resentment. As I knew its one of my calling. My previous resistance was my issue on validation, coupled with my Saturn in Aries. Coincidentally Z is over and Isha is in. At first I tot I dropped leadership in Isha and take Z. Alas, that's not to be.

Today received King of Spades - my long range card ( to find an area that I can take responsibility and to be a leader of some sort.)
Be prepared to take a leadership role and to live by ur own wisdom when this potent card appears. Success is yours for taking, but u have to stand and claim it.

Soul
I accepted my role in Isha.  I accepted Z is out. He truly doesn't fit my values now. But I thank him for opening me up physically and giving me the situation to overcome my Past.

My next step is to let go of my mind. It truly is not creative. It has nothing new, all old stuff being rehashed into misguided shapes.

Your body speaks ur mind - Deb Shapiro on Rheumatoid Arthritis 
The most important is finding ur heart and expressing it, sharing ur love and in this way become ur own best friend.

Soul
Yea. My True love is within

Abundance
If u r a woman, the King of Rainbows brings the support of ur own male energies into ur life, a union with soul mate within.