North node in 11th house - learning to stop resisting life

May 28
Woke up before 3 am cos it was too hot. I switched on the aircond and woke up again at 4.30 am upon alarm.
Did my asanas, my left feet is getting better. Plough back also gets better. Shakti is getting better.

Evening
Great help from the venue team. Getting close to having a  cheap venue for Sathsang.

Shoonya was very peaceful. Samyama was different today. I feel awake.
Now nearly 11 pm and yet I don't feel sleepy at all despite waking up at 4.30 am this morning.

Astrology for Soul
Healing song
The msg of this song to gently shift Aquarius north node (11th house) focus to an awareness of the bigger picture - the natural order and timing of life - thus empowering them to relax their resistance. Then they can become aware of and "tap into" the natural Flow, proceeding in a direct path to making their dreams come true.

Why do we prevent our own happiness?
By resisting the timing of life
Trying to decide what's wrong and what's right
With our foolish human minds!

And the sun comes up each morning
And it goes down every night.
And in the night, it's the moon that comes. It is never the sun.
There is system and order here
And it's reflected all around
Why not trust the laws of Life
They never let us down!

Soul
Of course tot the song was perfect for Z.
But I remember its for me too. Z and I both have control issue. We both have strong will.

I do have loads of resistance. Resistance comes up whenever I felt a loss of control.
Father, my karma on food is over. I know my body doesn't like meat. I stopped eating chicken and red meat and body frame has reduced considerably despite no reduction in intake.

Be the Change
Shambhala, the sacred path of the warrior, Chogyam Trungpa explains that the key to be a warrior is not to be afraid of who we are, to no longer be surprised or alarmed by what we find in our own mind, to know and be at ease with the dark corners in our shadow. This means we no longer being embarrassed by ourselves. It means refusing to give up on anyone or anything.
We are not timid in our tenderness or reluctant to show our feelings, are not afraid to cry or to embrace the suffering and sadness of others, for we know there is a basic goodness and sanity beneath all the neurosis and ignorance.

Soul
To me that means emotional freedom; means being a rebel.
Father, my perception of self mastery has changed. It is not about controlling oneself not to be affected. It is to be able to be affected, freed to express whatever comes. To walk our own chosen path.

Be the Change
Ken Green
Mindfulness leads to meekness, which leads to perkiness, to outrageousness, and then to inscrutability. That is the way I have literally learned to walk the path of the warrior.
If u let go of your defensiveness, u discover meekness and humility; then u get more liveliness that is very perky and energetic; u can start to be creative and to think and live out of the box, which is really the outrageous part. And then u don't have to prove yourself to anyone, no need to scheme or plan ur survival, which is being inscrutable.

Soul
Exactly.