Finally see my projection on my friend

Jun 12 eve

North node in Taurus
If they get in touch with what is truly important to them and clearly represents those values, then they will attract people who resonate with them.

Soul
An Ah Ha moment came. Suddenly I knew that's my judgement on M. I keep on saying she is not focused and not showing up what she values.
For me, I m focused but I don't express my values. I hide them.
So, first step is to express my values even if others don't approve of it.
Yesterday I finally informed my mother that I won't be eating pork and chicken. She now takes it better and plan meals to suit my change in diet. I m thankful I have a great mom, who loves us unconditionally; who lets us be who we want to be. She was even fine of me going for India now.

A new earth
Life wants sapling to become a tree, but the sapling doesn't see itself as separate from Life and so wants nothing for itself.
The sapling is one with what Life wants. That's why it isn't worried or stressed.
And if it has to die prematurely, it does with ease. It is as surrendered in death as it is in life.
It senses, no matter how obscurely, its rootedness in Being, the formless and eternal one Life.

Soul
That's always been my admiration for trees, even more so for grass.
They are just there despite the weather, the soil and people. Nothing affects them. If death so be it.
They are just there, the best that they can be. When they can glow with aliveness, they glow. When they are cut to death, they die.
There is absolutely no resistance to Life.

Soul
I have so much. Loving job, loving family, amazing spiritual tools, support from all the Masters, financial security, grace of receptivity to energy.
And here I focus on the absence of Z; which is also a lesson of Life.
Father, guide me through.
Attachment to food dissolves but now attachment to having a partner need your Help.
I have resisted your calling. I m now receptive. I won't resist.

Father, we had a good meet. M was great, all planned out. Now only need to execute. This is so much easier than I tot it would be. Father, when I accept it just happen. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to lead Isha. I think I won't be able to handle so much reduction on my valuation. Without career and Z.

We had a good sharing. As I was with the two meditators I can see that I was trying to show myself, to share.  I hold myself back cos I want them to share. I told them I m envious of their appreciation. I will learn to appreciate the grace of receptivity that I have been given.

Both S and M said that they see me as a possibility. I played an important role in Isha. They see that it is possible to feel the inner joy. They see that inner joy can happen even if one does not goes on vegetarian.

Father, thank you.

On the other M, it is not easy to work with him as he doesn't reply email. He doesn't do what'sapp. He just sent out a FB message of being a leader and boss. He always does that. He really does have an issue with leadership. Always saying others can't lead but he himself truly cannot lead.
The old me would react but now not bothered.

My existence is a possibility to others. I think me being able to have a 3 days work in a corporate environment also represent a possibility to others.

Father, I asked about my values. Today You gave me 2 meditators whom I respect and both said I m the possibility. I need not do anything or have anything. I just be. Amen.

Just saw Z latest pix. I m feeling more at peace now. He is there but not here. I will accept his absence.

It is nearly midnight but I m so alert. Not sleepy at all. But need to sleep cos tomorrow working day.