Going with the flow - finally good without Z

Jun 22
Woke up 7.25 am. Did my opening and guru pooja followed by one cycle of Surya kriya. Just that one cycle and I knew I was already in. Shakti was a different experience abd i was truly in. Kapala Bhakti was amazing. I did only one rest and yet my feet were not as cramp as per norm. Then came Shambavi. It was great.

At the end, suddenly I cried with grief, that it is all over; I am alone, Z is gone. I cried and tears fell. Afterwards silence. And then followed by some singing. Towards the closing prayer I suddenly laugh and I said Z is gone and I laugh even harder. I laughed for quite a long while. Then I knew I m finally good without Z.

Went for my swim. It was lovely. I swam a few rounds of breast stroke. I was able to swim without stopping halfway. I was laughing loads and even singing at some point. It's been two weeks since I got into the pool. The water is great. Father, as I was swimming I suddenly realised I truly can breathe under water and my body like the relaxing  breast stroke instead of fast paced free style.

I have been going on my life on fast pace. I recalled I got the realisation go with the flow doing free style a few years back. And now go with the flow with breast stroke.
A tot came; all my life was going against my natural body flow.

My last story was sometimes in March 2013. Then I was busy with Isha event for April and May. In June now, the final peaceful ending with Z. I just wrote two stories on the ending. What a beautiful finale. My journey continues.

I felt good release after writing my two stories. I truly write for myself. Today didnt take nap, which rarely happens.