I have released food..perhaps now I too can release Z

Jun 13 aft 3

North node in Taurus
In this incarnation, the most important goal for them is to build their own values and build a sense of self-worth.
They are learning they can't establish by going along with others to gain validation, nor can they attain self worth by resisting others' values.
They win when they discover what is truly precious to them: their own values. Self worth will come as a by-product of living according to their values.

They tend to be unwilling to give 100% of themselves. They hold back because they are afraid of failures and don't want to further undermine their sense of self worth.


Soul
True. I was afraid to fail. Is that why I don't want to "fly" in Isha.
My values in Isha is not as strong as others. I give myself lots of time off and I even had a sabbatical day. And when I m with Z or my family during vacation, I will skip my practices cos it is not shared by them.

Unlike P, an Eight of Diamonds who doubles her intake of meat when she found out I m letting go of meat. In the face of contradictory values, they strengthen it. In my case, I just give in as I perceive my values as not enshrined.
With the exception of food and Z, I can give way to others. The last 2 months I released food. Now perhaps can release Z too.

Father, I judged M for not focusing, for not following through with her values to create self-worth. Actually I m projecting myself on her. My feelings for her has now normalised. Perhaps she doesn't dare to focus cos fear of failure.


North node in Taurus
They gained power when they have the courage to walk through difficult times and experience a positive outcome.

They gained power when they communicate what is truly important to them, regardless of others' opinions and see the situation turn well.

They gained power when they step outside society's values and get in touch with their own values, they find their power every time they are true to themselves.

Soul
Yea. That's what I need to learn.