Attraction to Z is due to my past South Node in Scorpio

Jun 4
A dream that I remember. Z and I was driving and his hands were all over me and we went to a park.
Sometimes later my family came to the park to buy food. And Z disappear. My mom asked if I m staying or leaving with them.
When I saw Z disappear, I realised then he only wants me but not love me; so I left with my family. Dream ended with me in my family's car.
I realised whenever I tot of ending with Z, I tend to dream about him.

Just finished my practices. A tot came in. My attraction for Z is due to my south node in Scorpio and also my tendencies for crisis that i need leave behind. Instead of fighting to have Z, I should see that Universe is helping me to release Z so I can move towards my North Node. Amen.

For the first time, I can see possibility of God loving me on taking away Z rather than God giving me another lesson. I couldn't have left Z on my own. Great that Z realised we are not for each other eventhough there is major mutual attraction.

Afternoon
Woke up with a tot that I should be thankful for Z being off my life. He is my past, he was meant to heal my body. 


North node in Taurus
Making judgements
As they remain consistently true to their own values, they will become less judgemental about others who have different values.
They also tend to be highly judgemental of themselves and undermine their self-worth. They can become their own worst enemy.
They are learning that its not their job to judge; it's their job to simply walk through life handling each situation the best they can and moving step by step in the direction they feel is personally meaningful.

Soul
Yea, stop comparing myself with others. I have done good worth what I know and have.

Suddenly I realised I got hooked on FB. I opened it couple of months ago due to Isha promotion. Now I tend to go in. I myself doesn't share. Guess that's how people got hooked. Or perhaps I m more free now.