Soul mate challenge for North Node in Taurus

Jun 8
Slept around 1 am yesterday after doing my daily reading. Woke up 7.30 am to do my practices. Did till 9.18 am after a shower.

Just now was still coughing and I drank some cough syrup as advised by mom, was so sleepy. Knocked out for few hours and finally woke up for some late lunch. Now feeling full. I got dinner at 7.30 pm tonight.

Energy is bit low. A tot of Z came in. But I didn't follow it. Father, I finally admitted it he was not nice to me during our breakup.

Eve
Just out with friends. Suddenly I miss Z. I hold it and know its my past.
Thank you for the tools.
I m remembering that the tots my mind tells me may not be real. Mind is telling me I need a mate and Z was the last hope. I no longer believe that.
I m responsible for how I feel.

North node in Taurus
They were born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this lifetime is to focus less on bonding and more on building their values - then they will attract the right mate.

Deep in their heart, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment. To have this dream comes true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them feel whole, only then will they attract the right life partner.

Soul
Yea, having the same values is important. Today when out with friends, I was not being myself. I cannot share my inner tots, my journey. It was just superficial bonding. Food used to bond us together but now food is no longer my interest, the bond lessens.
Guess I can't be my real self.
So, my values are now being strengthen. Now I can understand Eight of Diamonds role in my life. Eight is powerful in their values and me Ruling with Ace of Diamonds need to emulate that.


North node in Taurus
They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship, and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright.

Soul
That was what I experienced just now.

North node in Taurus
But they must earn it. As they work to experience their own wholeness and direction and become a powerful river in their own right, they can merge with another powerful river that is going in the same direction, together they can flow to the sea.

Soul
Amen.