Things that I never tot can happen five years ago, now has happened after Isha

Jun 22 eve 1
Father, just watched Sadhguru's video. What a powerful experience, its like a Sathsang with him.
I m thankful that I m receptive to my Guru.

I just wrote down that I want to go Kailash and immediately fear came up, u cannot walk.
My reply, not sure.
I tot I can't do plough back but I did.
I tot I can't do meditation but I did.
I tot I can't wake up 4.30 am but I did.
I tot I can't receive Dhynalinga but I did.
I tot I can't receive Sadhguru but I did.
I tot I can't drop my career but I did.
I tot I can't have 3 days work but I did. 
I also tot I can't drop food, but I did.
I tot I can't swim breast stroke but I did. 
I tot I can't open up to Z but i did.
I tot i cannot release Z but its over.

So many things that I tot not possible 5 years ago has all happens. At least I can learn not to say no.