Forgiveness for North Node in Taurus

Jun 6 aft
Father, just did Shoonya. So peaceful, came out from a deep sleep.

Now lunch, just have fruit juice. I had a slightly heavier breakfast and not hungry. I no longer need to eat to be happy. I m truly transformed.

Taurus north node
Forgiveness
They need to face the necessity of forgiveness when dealing with abuse or wounding - it's the only way they can cleanse the other person from their physic field and regain inner peace. Regardless of what the other person did to them, they need to forgive the abuse and forgive themselves for allowing the abuse to occur. It also helps if they identify the strength they gained from the experience.

Soul
True. It took me many months to realise that I can't let go of Z because I couldn't forgive myself for him. I just forgiven myself in recent weeks and now finally after forgiveness I am liberated from him.
Father, he wounded me. And I didn't acknowledged it. That's why it took so long. Thanks for finally realising that holding on to him is losing mastery over myself. With that, Z was released. Amen.

Taurus north node
Connection with nature
Whenever they depend on others to fill their nurturing needs, they feel let down. It's set up this way because their lesson is to become independent in meeting their own needs.

Soul
No wonder, at nearly she 46; still fail. I used to think God doesn't love me. I used to think because I m self protect that I can't seek any protection. I used to be angry about my power, my strength. I used to be angry that not only I can't get protection, I had to offer other protection as well. So draining.
But after this recent experience with Z; I m slowly accepting that its just my path and it relates to destiny of my Self-mastery.

North node in Taurus
Connection with nature
These folks have a magical relationship with Mother Nature and with the earth, and that is where much of their nurturing is destined to come from. Their attunement to Mother Nature empowers them to connect directly with her energy and absorb it in a healing and reenergising way. For peace of mind and inner strength, they need to spend time in nature.
Situations with others that evoke insecurity will occur less frequently when these folks are consistently reinforcing a base of calm support inside themselves.

Soul
I always dreamed of a house with leaving room facing trees. Similar to the one I saw in Finland.
Only in BSP, I knew I can relate to nature. And now after a few years of practices, I got high definition eyes for nature. The grasses looks so alive.
My once a week walk in the park helps me to connect with nature. All this happens after my fourties.

Taurus north node
Sensual enjoyment
In past lives, Taurus north node developed a deep enjoyment of the spiritual/psychic senses. Now its time to develop a deeper awareness of the five physical senses.
The idea is to pay attention to the pleasure their physical senses offer them: the smell of spring time, the taste of a good meal, a perfume they enjoy or the touch of a lover. Even lifting weights or other physical exercise can be sensual - anything that gets them in touch with their bodies in a way that results in pleasure or self esteem.

Soul
All my life I avoided this part; putting full attention to food. Then when I discover the touch of a lover by Z, I was so afraid to lose it.
I was surprised that my body actually love hata yoga despite my resistance. No wonder Surya kriya gets me into such joy. Asanas gets me laughing and crying.
I may have let go of meat but I gained my body back. Lost nearly 4 kg of fat and continues.

For nearly 3 years, I was off massages cos I got Z. But now I m back to massages and now  next month going for rejuvenation at Ashram. One month to go.