Z does not fit my new values

Jun 3 eve
North node in Taurus
The Achilles heel Taurus NN need to be aware of is seeking self-worth through others, which can lead them into the trap of an unending search for soul mate.
In truth, they can only achieve a sense of completeness within themselves - it will never come as a by-product of a rship, even with a soul mate.

Soul
I always ignore the part on me needing soul mate. I wrongly focus on the north node in Scorpio that says I need soul mate. As C said, I have to read in reverse, means I don't need.

On the surface, I don't need. But inside me, there is a sense of incompleteness. Even when I m in joy during meditation, I be singing love songs. No wonder I had difficulty in letting go of Z. I tot that's the test I have to pass through. To have a soul mate.

North node in Taurus
The bottom line is that they must stop being enmeshed with others and involved in others business, and simply walk their own path instead.

Soul
Yea. Perhaps not leading in Isha but to be a leader on my own rights via my website.

North node in Taurus
They are looking for total, permanent commitment, a synergistic rship. To successfully establish this type of rship, they must be discriminating and find someone with similar energy and values. The shared goals must be innately valuable to each of them as individuals.

For this to happen, they must first get in touch with their own values. They must be strong within themselves, aware of what they want, and tune in to what is real and meaningful for them.
The challenge is to establish their own energy systems and figure out who they are as individuals. As their energy becomes stronger, they will automatically attract mates of similar energy with whom they can form successful partnership.

Soul
I have now correct my validation issue with peers and staff.
Now worked on validation from partner.
Bit embarrassed that I m still so low. But that's my lesson.