Using the Power of Now and Sadhguru to get me off my past, Z

Jun 19 aft
The Power of Now
The moment u observe the pain-body, feel its energy field within u and take ur attention into it, the identification is broken. A higher dimension call as presence; u are now the witness or the watcher of the pain-body. This means it cannot use u anymore by pretending to be u, and it can no longer replenish itself through u. U have found ur own innermost strength. U have accessed the Power of Now

Soul
I can now relate to this. For me, whenever tots of Z come in, I just bring back my awareness of my inner peace. I bring back my presence.

The Power of Now
Be the ever alert guardian of ur inner space. U need to be present to watch the pain-body directly and feel its energy. It then cannot control ur thinking. The moment ur thinking is aligned with the energy field of the pain body, u r identified with it and again feeding it with ur tots

Soul
True.

The Power of Now
Sustained consciousness attention severs the link between the pain-body and ur tot processes and brings about the process of transmutation. It is as if the pain becomes fuel for the flame of ur consciousness, which then burns more brightly as a result. This is the esoteric meaning of the ancient art of alchemy: the transmutation of base metal into gold, of suffering into consciousness.

The process
Focus the attention on the feeling inside u. Know that it is pain-body. Accept that it is there.
Don't think about it - don't let the feeling turn into thinking.
Don't judge or analyse.
Don't make an identity for urself out of it.
Stay present and continue to be the observer of what is happening inside u.
Be aware not only of the emotional pain but also of "the one who observes" the silent watcher.
This is the power of the Now, the power of ur own consciousness.

Soul
Mmm, I m doing but I make an identity out of it. I controlled it. Will note the process. Don't judge or analyse the pain-body.

The Power of Now
If u r able to stay alert and present at that time and watch whatever u feel within, rather than be taken over by it, it affords an opportunity for the most powerful spiritual practice, and a rapid transmutation of all past pain becomes possible.


Soul
Yea, that's my key to self mastery. When I first read this in 2002, I tot not possible. But in 2013 I know is possible and I want to transmute all past pain. I m ready to let go of my mind.

The Power of Now
Nobody can do it for u. But if u r fortunate enough to find someone who is intensely conscious, if u can be with them and join them in the state of presence, that can be helpful and will accelerate things. In this way, ur own light will quickly grow stronger. When a log that has only just started to burn is placed next to one that is burning fiercely, and after awhile they are separated again, the first log will be burning with much greater intensity. After all, it is the same fire. To be such a fire is one of the function of a spiritual teacher.

Soul
Father, I am truly fortunate. I found mine in Sadhguru. And that's why I m now confident of doing the process of Now.
Alas I want to buy a pix of him.

Father, a tot occur to me. Instead of thinking that loss of partner erodes my valuation. Why can't I see that with or without a partner, my valuation is the same.

The main reason I resist the separation is due to loss of valuation. Now that I knew Z is married, I can see my mind start exploring for possibility of other partner. This tot never came as long as I still had hope on Z, even during our separation for the past eight months. The tot of looking out never occur to me. Now that I know Z has truly abandon me. Mmm, as I typed this, suddenly it trigger a feeling. Father, the small child in me.