North Node in 11th house - attune to Esoteric Sciences

Jun 24 aft

Five of Clubs
Change of mind and plan is the basic meaning.
This signal for a change in ur life. U will feel a dissatisfaction with things as they are and want to progress into new areas. Be open to new plans, new ideas, new places to go, etc.

Soul
Today feeling bit restless. Maybe due heavy flow of menses. But feels better after a nice cheese cake and coffee. Also glad I m having my time alone.
Father, I truly need time alone. That's one of the main reason I never wanted children.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
They need impersonal feedback to gain perspective, because they are so identified with themselves that they can't see themselves clearly.
For example, in a romantic relationship they are usually blissfully ignorant of what is going on. Then, because of factors in the larger picture that they didn't see, they get hurt.

Soul
True. I was caught off guard that he went into marriage without telling me.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
To avoid emotional pain, they need an objective guidance system for their personal life.
These folks need to modify the ego and bring themselves into alignment with the Flow. The Esoteric Sciences (Astrology, Numerology, Tarot, Handwriting Analysis, etc.) can provide the objectivity to re-strategies.  These resources increase Aquarius north nodes' power of correct observation and modify their tendency to automatically react to situations in an ego-centered way. The I Ching is an excellent tool for this; it gives them the "inside scoop" on what is troubling them and it empowers them to come into alignment with what is actually happening. Astrology is also an excellent tool for fostering objectivity. It allows them to see themselves and others impartially, releasing them from the frustrations of trying to evoke things in the other person that are not there, and providing otherwise hidden knowledge of who they really are. It helps them to accept themselves and others, and value others' individuality. 

Soul
Father, perfect.
I used the following tools:
Astrology (natal charts, north nodes and Cosmic Love by Jan Spiller.
Humanmetrics
7thunders cards
Osho tarot cards

Actually 7thunders did say about the separation with Z via Five of Hearts in Venus and it also said letting go of Z, food and career via Nine of Diamonds in Results.
It also tells me that late last year, Z be meeting his new partner and this year he be marrying but I ignored it.
Osho tarot keep on giving me Completion card and Clinging to the past card, which I ignored too.
 Natal chart tells me Z was my Soul mate, which is true as he is my mirror in many ways. Learning about Z natal chart also led me to understand his need for society's approval and children. But I choose to ignored cos I was wilful and I had abandonment issue.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
They are talented in Esoteric Sciences and could easily enter one of these fields professionally. They have an ability to "read the map" of the astrology or tarots.

Soul
Yes, I am talented. I seems to have inherent skill. But not keen in going professional.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
Another resource is their friends. They have great friendship karma.

Soul
I normally go to P.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
When they step back and deliberately look at situations from the other person's perspective (what the other person wants and needs), then they can make choices in alignment with what will work for everyone including themselves - in each situation.
But ultimately, to gain the full measure of freedom and love they so fervently seek requires these folks to not only objectively view others but also objectively view themselves. As they begin to observe themselves without judging, they gain the perspective to authentically be themselves without fear.

Soul
Amen. On the right track. Still travelling. But I m no longer worried about uncertainty as I got loads of Help.