My True Love is within me

Jun 21
My true love is within.

Woke up 7 am to alarm but snooze bit cos just want to savour my time freedom. Finally woke up 7.20 am to do my practices.
Surya kriya was amazing. I m now able to breathe comfortably on standing back bending posture. Looks like my lungs open up. I also can do breathe fluttering. Both my feet can touch the ground.
Shakti was great as now I m really into Kapala Bhakti, only rested once and full focus even during the last postures. Of course my legs were stiff. Towards the end I started to laugh. I contained myself before I start Shambavi. Love songs start to come in my mind and a sentence came, "true love is within". I just let it be and continue with my practices. Lovely Suka kriya, so peaceful. Explosive aum chanting as my head was shaking furiously, i was laughing and lovely towards the end. In the end, My mouth suddenly open and cried put loud for two times and then silence. After awhile suddenly a realisation came; my true love is within me and I start to sing "looking for love in the wrong places". Then I was crying loads, deep tears from within. I finally found my heart, my love is within. I laugh thereafter. And then just a sweet silence. Plough back was great.
Father, thank You.

When I was doing my practices some attacking tots of Z came in and I just brush it off and the wave of tot disappeared. Father, my mind truly is in time; past and future of extrapolated past.

A calmness descend on me. Just came back from dentist. When he was cleaning and drilling my teeth, my eyes was closed and I went into a peaceful meditation. Once my eyes is closed, I m in my inner space. Some pain is there but not so pain and hence I feel refreshed after the "teeth scaling session".

Nine of Spades
Universal Giver card.
This is one of death card and indeed there will be a death in ur life of some kind. We go through mini deaths just like the snake shedding its skin, arrive at a new and better place each time we do so. It cleared away all unwanted and useless debris in our life and put us back on a new course where we are more enlivened and satisfied.

Soul
My true love is within me. No more searching for love. Those love songs erupted from me is for me to look within. Amen.