Expressing my frustration

Jun 26 aft

Father, yea I got exasperated with the taxi driver as I waited for half an hour when it was supposed to be only ten minutes. I didnt want to go through traffic jam. Throughout I called and give direction. He didn't listen and went wrong way again.  Anyway, he said I raised my voice and he will cancel my booking and won't pick me up and hang up on me. I got my sister to drive me instead.

I asked myself was I fair and I think I m fair. I didn't shout but I know I sound exasperated. Then a tot came of Z. Once I raised my voice and he said he will walk away if I don't stop. Well, I matter and I only raises voice when I reach my peak. If they can't handle, so be it. From now onward, I matters and I will express myself. If others disapprove of me, so be it.

Today I didn't check my office mails except for some calls in the morning. I am on leave and must keep it that way. I think this is the first time I didn't think of office.

 I also got my car back with a new dashboard. So, everything is fresh and I went to replace the spoilt

Just finished my evening Shoonya and Samyama. I went into a deep Shoonya. Samyama was fine. I can see my tots. Final resting is so peaceful. I savour the silence. Plough back was great.

Watched Korean drama. Time to get some feeling of romance. When I was with Z, I don't watch cos real life not so romantic. When we break I didn't watch cos don't want to feel sad. Alas, now can watch.