Age 39 to 51 Nine of Hearts

Aug 14 eve 1
Osho - Razor edge.
So first be selfish and discover all that is contained in yourself - all the joys, and all the blissfulness and all the ecstasies. And then unselfishness will come like a shadow.

Soul
My Destiny card is Queen of Diamonds - Philanthropist. I know I m far from it. My Jupiter is Nine of Hearts - Universal Love (Givers, endowed with great minds and hearts to share with the world)

 My Cosmic Reward card is Nine of Diamonds - The Giver
(Many of them are destined to make contributions to the world often by leading others to a higher form of knowledge)

Father, I suddenly recalled my period is Jupiter period age 39 to 51
 Nine of Hearts
U will get one or more important wish fulfilled.
There will be some completions or ending of key relationships that represent their completion of certain 'soul chapters'. If the endings are resisted, they will be interpreted as disappointment and loss instead of graduations that they truly represent.

Soul
Well, my wish of website and 3 days week are fulfilled.
Definitely break of relationships.
At first I was heartbroken over Z's wedding. The sadness went on for more than 8 months plus, but lighten with visit to ashram. 
And just last weekend I realised the whole break up is for me to reinterpret my lifetime challenge Seven of Hearts.
And now I know the break up is because he is not my growth partner. We are at different path in life.
And I know break up comes cos I have breakthrough my karma, ended lessons; means graduated.

(Aug 17 - my FC also just resigned last Friday after 4 years of service, another ending)

Father, thank You for the affirmation. A great follow up to yesterday miracle.

My last year Pluto in Queen of Spades - Develop capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, thoughts, ideas and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.

Soul
Exactly my miracle yesterday. I come to realised I already arrived. I m already the master of myself. Now just needs to expand to my relationship with the ending of Seven of Hearts and Seven of Clubs. Amen.

Father, now looking at the obituary that I wrote at least 3 years ago. 
My Obituary
We all have known Joy deeply. She is not afraid to show us her deepest feeling, both the fear n joy. She has given us the courage to see within, firstly to remove the lies as much as we can on our own and lastly connect wit the Universe to do the rest.
Once we r whole, we will be able to manifest all our desires as there is no longer any conflicting expectations/beliefs.

She has lived her life courageously and fully. A year of her life equates to at least 3 years of a normal life. She has taught us to see suffering as a sign for us to stop n evaluate n choose again.

She radiates joy and laugh so easily and makes people feel happy. She is so trusting and allow others to be open as well.

She shows us life is more than just the seen, the day to day work, the relationship, the friends, she shows us there is an unseen force at work in our life.

She taught us a marriage in spirit make us whole and make us open and strong. She has shown us being vulnerable, defenseless is allowing the Universe to manifest thru us.

She has touched our life individually. Just a moment spent with her, u will be able to see more of ur interior than a life time of looking and prodding.

She is someone that u r thankful to meet as just one meeting alone would bring a life changing moment.

She could be the one that don't have to come back as she has learn all life's lesson.
To her husband, we says u r very lucky and so is she to have know him.

Soul
Father, I am truly living it..except for the part of the marriage and 'husband'.
Opening up my blog into website
Living courageously, living in my sadness...and suffering till I found a way out.
Living joyfully despite the pain of losing Z. My joy has never diminished. Like they said, my name is so perfect, so me.

I like this part :
Once we r whole, we will be able to manifest all our desires as there is no longer any conflicting expectations/beliefs.

Ending lifetime Seven of Hearts (Destiny) and Seven of Clubs (Ruling) is removing my conflicting expectations so I can manifest my desires of my husband. Amen
And I think this also removed my validation issue. Just know just message L instead of calling her. It is true I am grateful to her for helping me with my car but I should only do what I can. In truth, I strongly recommend her to do A Course in Miracles to get her perception on the right track.

Browsing thru my old notes and saw this;
Expect a Miracle
We are all born with certain lessons to learn and we unconsciously create situations in our lives to help us fulfill this destiny, to help us discover our power.
Certain conflicts arise in early childhood to point us toward our path. They are the fundamental building blocks for the personalities we become. They drive us to figure things out, to seek enlightenment, and to become closer to the God potential within.
You see, our wound are gifts - sometimes very, very painful ones, but always doorways we are forced through so that we can see beyond our personal limits to the grander scheme of life.

Soul
Suffering is blessing. Amen
And like Osho says Pain is not to make us sad; pain is to make us aware. And if we are aware, we are transformed.