Finally able to defend myself against Parental mode

Aug 19
Father, put alarm at 5.25 am cos slept late, around 1 am, energised by Sathsang. A good one.

Finally told S that we are both not good for each other. I also said that I prefer to have staff that respect and support me.

Father, a tot came. The lesson with Pe, she is another parental mode, albeit less hostile. My lesson is people who speak loudest or firmest may not be gospel truth. She is entitled to her opinions. Just because I don't dish out to others.

Father. S responded and said I should not have employed her previously. S said her new boss said she wouldn't recommend anyone after one month of working. Said that I feel threaten by her. This time I replied and defended myself.

Father, I had enough of all this parental mode friends who think they are always right. Who feels that they have a right to dish out their opinions. From now on, I will defend myself. I will create an internal parameter. No more letting others hit me everytime. No more thinking that because I hold back my opinion, because u believed in freedom, others will do the same.
Amen.

The secret of Shambhala
At some point, every culture must truly grasp that we are spiritual beings and that our bodies themselves are only atoms in a particular vibration, a vibration that can be raised as our connection and prayer power increase.

Soul
Now start with Kapalvriksha.


The secret of Shambhala (choosing a mate)
We assess - whether we are fully conscious of it or not - if the style of life with that individual mate will represent an advance forward from the style or attitude that we ourselves grew up with.
Choosing the right mate is important evolutionary point of view. As we evolve spiritually. humans are destined to mate consciously in order to set up home, or home attitude, that represent a more truthful way of life compared to the previous generation. Intuitively we know that we must build a life that adds to the wisdom we found in the world when we arrive.

Soul
Father, truly over. Yesterday darshan by Sadhguru tells me the reason I got entangled is the glue.
Now this tells me that I was right in my previous assessment  that Z is not right support for me, that he can't bring me forward. My dream is a partner that we can grow together. So the break up is a blessing to me, a help cos I can't do it on my own due to entanglement.
Amen.
Now ready to tell Z that miracle is here.