Still savouring my enjoyment in swimming

Aug 17 eve 2
Mmm, almost five hours passed, almost insignificant tots of Z. After yesterday journal, nothing more to carry on. No wonder, once u understood let go just happen.

Soul
Reading about Osho's disciples was sad but also wake up call. Like Sadhguru says we cannot control others, we can only control ourselves.

Today as I was driving back in the late afternoon I felt sleepy. I just look and feel the trees along the road and breathe in their energy. Feels good.

Osho - razor edge
Once u r relaxed, the way the trees are relaxed, u will find ur roots in existence.

Soul
Once I relax in the pool, mu body swims automatically, enjoyment came. This is the second time I m experiencing enjoyment in the pool.
For the first time today, there were no struggle with the mind, with fears.
Such a miracle, alas enjoying swimming breast stroke. I tot it can never happen in this lifetime.
And it happens same time as Kapala Bhakti.
Father, Shakti really requires patience and relaxation. Both C and L done it very well.
Now I see Shakti as just like my swimming previously. Once I can learn to relax it will flow.

Osho - razor edge
Ego makes u sad, serious; responsibility takes away ur smiles, ur laughter - and to me laughter is the essential religion.
The capacity to dance and sing, not separate from existence but as part of it, is the very foundation of a real religious man.

Soul
Dance and song were never in my life. After meditation, it happens by itself. Amen.

Just sitting here for awhile. Contented silence, with a smile on my face. Amen.

Osho - razor edge
Every meditator has to remember it: One day u will be pregnant with godliness - whether u are a man or woman  does not matter - and the unknown will find its way. U are simply to relax and follow it.
U have given it birth just like a woman gives birth to a child. She does not create it; it grows of its own accord, and a day comes when it comes out of the womb.

Soul
My results Ace of Hearts this year

Osho - razor edge
Let life lead ur way. Give ur hand to existence without any doubt and without any question. And never ask where it is leading you - it always leads to ur destiny and it never fails.
When the ocean has called u, trust it - take a jump and disappear into it.

Soul
Amen.
Not sure where I m going but know ending has arrived.