Finally sitting well for Shakti Chalana kriya

Aug 16
Wake up at 3.30 am cos nephew was crying loud. Then wake up at 4.25 am and then remember I can sleep later cos different office, alas wake up at 5.25 am

Did 5 cycle of Surya kriya. Getting more flexible. At the end of namaste posture, suddenly my body contract at lower half getting ready for the final holding breathe posture. Also on the one leg squatting posture, the other hand can now lower much more to the ground. All in all a good one. In the end I was singing. Did Shavasana but doze off. Did a quick breathing as there is no time and also just woke up.
Shakti was great, my sitting posture was so comfortable. Yesterday my right feet was in pain and I even tot I need a small pillow. Today the sitting posture happen by itself and it was comfortable. Kapala Bhakti was slow and steady. I remember my breast stroke swimming, taking breathe before the next hiss. Towards the end I was singing and legs were find.
Continued singing into Shambavi. Aum chanting was great in arashidharna posture. Suka kriya and fluttering also at arashidharna posture. It just happen. A contented silence. I felt my breathe pushed out.
And throughout only one or two tots of Z and wife. Great.

As I was driving, mind said both Z and E wife are beautiful and young. I counter I m also beautiful in different way. My life karma is different and if I m beautiful in conventional way, I can't work out my karma. The beauties karma are different.
Father, I used to lament on my top half but now I like it. Finally grown.

On Z just remember we had good ending. They are in my life so I can remember the end of Seven of Hearts and I need not play the tape of betrayal again. From now onwards no more The Outsider and even if face it, I can open the door cos it is unlocked. Amen.

As I was driving a tot came. U are already a master of urself.
Power is having.
I lost my faith when I lost Z. But now my faith is back. I attracted Z to learn my physical and emotional lesson. Now I will attract my true partner. I will love again and it be good love.