Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Experiencing Samyama - I am not my body

Aug 2 even
Just did my Shoonya and Samyama.

I went in deep into Shoonya. Then I remove my chair and went in for Samyama. I can now easily get into arashidharna posture. Just looking at my breathe, feeling my spine and watching my mind. Some singing going on. Feels good just sitting and watching. Body was still involuntarily. Lower part of body can't move, very stable.

Then suddenly I feel myself not my body. I was looking at my body, seeing my breathe and tot they are not me. This happen for quite a while. After that I m back.
Finish off with a plough back. The best plough back ever. Just silence.
Towards the end after my prayer of thanks, i was about to say i love me but instead a tot came, I am not my name. This statement jolted me. Who am I then, if not me? 

Something happen today. Not sure what. But I think breaking my dilemma on food and purchasing online ticket to go for Refresher Samyama broken me. Suddenly I start to cry while typing this. Just crying. Not sure why. Perhaps an overwhelming experience. First time seeing I m not me.

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