Fear of relationship and fear of water - both deep-seated, both are not real

Aug 28 eve
Suddenly fear of past came back. I told myself breathe. Focus on my breathe, be in existential mode. Suddenly I become aware that my fear on relationship is the equivalent fear of water; truly deep-seated.
The fear is not real; just like my fear of water.
Half an hour later I calmed down.

Osho - razor edge
One fundamental law of existence, that if u can deepen ur experience in any one dimension, u become capable of deepening ur experience in other dimensions to the same extent.
For example if u can deepen ur silence, u can deepen ur love without difficulty, because its the same process.

Soul
Since I overcome my deep-seated fear of water by being in the present; the same I can do for my deep-seated fear on relationship.

Osho - razor edge
The more tots u have, the stronger ur ego. When ur mind stop completely, his ego also disappears.
While ur ego remains dominant  u will remain on the surface. If u want to know the deeper realities and mysteries; then u have to watch ur tots. Just by watching, they start becoming less and less to u. And a day comes when u find u are here without any tots. From that day, u start to living on deeper levels, where life has its roots.

Soul
Living in existential mode means going beyond the psychological mode. No longer loving in our tots, our mind. Being here on earth, grounded.

Osho - razor edge.
If u can feel the opening of the heart, then u are not a difficult problem.  If u can feel love, and even the awareness that this is the taste of what is possible, then u almost reach the temple door.

Soul
When I was in Dhynalinga, my heart opens up and I feel such love for it. When I feel Sadhguru's picture gazing at me, I feel his love. All these took me nearly 5 years with Isha.
So I m near the temple door.