Swimming with enjoyment - fear over water slowly but surely dissolving

Aug 17 eve
Very little tots on Z. After yesterday breakthru of seeing that I was lost in my own illusion - nothing to extrapolate anymore; nothing is real. My tots were all an illusion.

For yesterday and today my mind is singing songs just before I sleep. A few years ago, it was laughter.

This morning practices was great. The Shakti was incredible. I was in a good posture, legs were not cramped. The posture just happens by itself. During Kapala Bhakti, I suddenly tot of swimming. Just breathe and go with the flow. That's what I did and Kapala Bhakti was amazing. After 4 years I finally got it. My legs were not cramped in the end. Shambavi was good too. So lovely contented silence. Plough back was great.

Today swim was extraordinary. I laugh and sing in the first three cycle. In the fourth and fifth cycle, suddenly body just want to swim with little rest. I just savour the water and let my body do the rest.
This time I tot swimming is like meditation. Once u know, enjoyment came. Today I swam am extra two cycles. Amazing.
I feel liberated.

Father, as I was updating my blog. I saw this in my obituary
Once we are whole we will be able to manifest all our desires as there is no longer any conflicting expectation or belief.

Soul
The key is belief and expectation.
That's why natal chart is important as it gives an insight to ur beliefs.

Sadhguru on tantra
Only the body needs to be preserved. The others like our personality need not be preserved. Why do we need to preserve our limitations?
When someone try to preserved the limited; isn't it a clear statement that I don't want anything to do with the unlimited. It is because every cell in ur body is making this statement that every cell in ur body makes the spiritual process seems so difficult. It is not difficult. If u r willing to be smaller, it will be easy. If u r unwilling, some grinding is needed. If u r willing, no grinding is needed.

Soul
Ace of Diamonds new values helps me in my spiritual process. Helps me to open up to the messages from the Masters.