No longer want to attract difficult relationship to prove my mastery

Aug 16 eve
Nope. I don't want S to work with me. She just want to get out of her current job. She doesn't want to work for me. She doesn't like my management style nor does she respect my management style.
She is not likeable to most people and tend to antagonise people. Especially in my company, she is not suitable.
 Lastly she is my first karma card, lets not re-live the lesson over and over again.
I have saved her few times but all to no avail. She will be appreciate in the beginning. Once recovered she would dislike me. In a way just like Sa.
No need to give myself difficult time by having a staff that doesn't respect me; doesn't support me.
Father, this is new me. The old me would be guilty. Even if she is still in old company, I wouldn't recommend her.
My preference would be for J.


I had comeback from Sa turn out bad
I had comeback from S - turn out bad, one time with our ex-boss A, then her boss G, and then with my ex-boss E. She attacked me for my incompetency and etc.
She forgot that it was her who beg me for the job. And then stabbed me.
No more.
I need not go back for another bad comeback.
So truly doesn't want her and especially more so when I know Regional doesn't like her. And it will cause bad blood with my ex boss, E.
So truly the main thing is that she is not suitable for the job and not suitable for me.
In the end, no point making others happy but knowing I be sad.
Father, this is a true turning point of Seven of Hearts. I see as she is and let her be. I need not make myself unhappy. I can also let myself be.  Lets just be friends.

Went to the dinner meet with senior management of newspaper publication. Got myself intro with my name Joy.
One of the Council said my new name fit me to a T. Just like what the meditators in ashram says too.

I attend the dinner because hoping to get connection for Isha.
 Got the EVP interested in yoga. I m going to invite him for IK. I also shared about corporate IK.
Didnt realised that the other members in the Council promotes me on yoga. So they did the opening for me.
The Chief Sales Officer was a Christian and so don't do yoga as they feel it is Hinduism. She asked about my free days. I told her about my writing and book review. I said I am not a reviewer, I am just
She said I m disciplined. I said I needed the released. She said nope, I m disciplined.

As I drive back, a tot came. Maybe I can get a column in the newspaper.