Countering my mind's negative tots

Aug 11 eve 3
Just finished watching the video.
I still don't think I m a writer. I m more a story teller. And I tell my story.

A negative tot came, u got nothing to share. Only writes about Z. Relationship issue only. Who wants to hear, no big issues.
A counter positive tot came, then isn't it great. I should be thankful I got no big issues, all survival issues handled. Only rship issue. And that's my inner soul.
This is similar to what Osho says. Only when u r outwardly rich, u can see ur inner poverty.
So, be glad I only have romantic rship to handle. I m truly an old soul. No wonder my Solar in Taurus.

Ah ha! I m not an outward story teller. I m an inward story teller. The story of our minds.
I m not a physical or form story writer. I m a formless or substance writer.

Osho - Razor edge
Mind will always create. Whether in imagination or truth, whether it is a dream or reality, whether I am hallucinating or experiencing something existential.
Once and for all, tell the mind, "It is none of ur business. If it is hallucination and I am enjoying it, nothing is wrong in it."
The criterion should be the enjoyment, the ecstasy, the dance - if it is filling my heart with joy, then who cares whether it is true or untrue.

Otherwise even if u become enlightened, ur mind is going to ask, "First enquire whether ur enlightenment is true or just an exaggerated imagination."  If it is imagination, then too it is a very good imagination; if it is a dream, it is a very sweet dream. It is better than having nightmare.
The mind has to be continuously put into its place - "You are not to be taken seriously at all. I am going to enjoy my imagination, I am going to enjoy my hallucination, my illusion. I am going to enjoy my dreaming - I am going to enjoy. U just keep silent, don't disturb."

Soul
Exactly. Speaking words of mine. I may not be the master of my mind but I m not their slave. I need not listen.

This is similar message to Internal influence, Schizophrenia card. Mind said my breakthrough of ending lifetime Seven of Hearts, of ending with Z is not true since I had difficulty in entering into deep meditation.
Well, it was true when it happen. And I only cry very little with Linga Bhairavi. I m not hiding. Infact I tot I would cry at the initial stage of Shoonya but no cries came out. I m not controlling my emotion.

Osho
The real thing is ur being blissful, not the object, whether it is real or not. Ur blissfulness is the criterion of its reality.

Soul
Thank U for quickly coming to my aid.

Osho
But the mind is very clever and cunning. Even if in this very moment it cannot distract u, it can start thinking and giving u ideas that you may go astray on the future; u may lose the path.

Soul
That's what it was doing. Even now I m typing this. The mind buzzing behind that with some inconsequential tot on Z. Totally unnecessary. Totally not helpful.

Osho
If u r here right now, then ur next moment will be born from this moment. It will even be more real. The future does not come from above, from nowhere; it grows within u.
And if ur present moment is full of love and full of juice, out of this present moment will be growing ur future; out of this life will be growing another life; out of this experience is going to grow ur experience of the eternal.

Soul
Exactly. As I was leaving the park. I said Destiny is in my hand.
But why mind still hold me back, poking at me.

Osho
But mind takes a little time, because u have listened for its fears and anxieties always. It goes on poking nose into everything.

U have to be alert not to allow mind to disturb ur peace in the present, and the future will take care of itself.
Because the future will always come as the present - and u know how to take care of the present - u know how to take care of eternity because time cannot come to u in any other form than the present.

Soul
Similar message to Sadhguru.
Also similar to The Secret of Shambhala. I have to protect and support my energy field.

Osho
So let ur blissfulness be the only criterion. If something is making u blissful, it is bound to be real - because from unreal u cannot get blissfulness. And if ur blissfulness keeps on growing, then u are on the right path.

Soul
Father, Thank you so much. Osho, thank You. Ever since I have included u in my daily prayer of thanks, ur response is accelerated.