Telling mind not to hurt us

Aug 10 eve

1. Issue
Sorrow
The pain was not to make u sad. It is to make u alert, to make u aware.
Time of great sorrow have the potential to be times of great transformation when we experience it as it is, without blame or self pity.
When u r aware, misery disappears.

Soul
Alas the card shows up. Father, intuition really working.
Father, I must be ready to receive news of his wife. I tot I be devastated but I m not. Finally understood why we are not together. Z is not a good support for me; he is not my true partner in my dream of self mastery.

2. Internal influence
Schizophrenia
Better follow ur heart, if u can find it. Ur heart will start beating so fast there will be no mistake where it is.

Soul
Not sure what relates to.

3. External influence
Control
If u r uncontrolled, flowing, alive, then whatever happens, happens.

Soul
Earlier I had some mental drama of the future wife and mind keep on asking me to find out and even asked about it. I just said when the time comes, I will know.
Now that I finally know of his wife and that we will definite cross path, I m not worried.
Funny I tot I will see them in a few months time but looks like may be even earlier.

4. What is needed for resolution?
The outsider
When we feel left out or excluded, it brings up this feelings of a small and helpless child. It is not surprising as the feeling is deeply rooted in our earliest childhood experiences.
U now have an opportunity now to stop the tape, to quit tormenting urself with ideas that somehow u r not 'enough' to be accepted and included. Recognise the roots of these feelings in the past, and let go of the old pain. It will bring u the clarity to see how u can open the gate and enter that which you most long to become.


Soul
My earlier tot was why he couldn't get someone outside our sphere. I wanted someone within and mind start to say that's why he had to keep us a secret. But I know that's the mind. I asked mind not to hurt us. Z didn't plan for this.
I can now come. I faced the sorrow of separation cos I have matured. Z is not good for me. We both have fulfilled our purpose.
Him leaving me doesn't not reflect my lovability.


5. The understanding
We are the world
Life has been given to u to create, and to rejoice and to celebrate.
When u cry and weep, when u r miserable, u r alone.
When u celebrate, the whole existence participates with u.
Only in celebration do we go beyond the circle of life and death.
This is a circle without fear of feelings of inferiority and superiority.

Soul
I m no longer inferior.