When I am lost in my mind and feelings, I am in psychological mode - not real

Aug 28 aft
Feeling restless over the fact that I m unable to accept the Completion.
I tried to write the story on Completion so as to end Volume 4.
Yesterday I was feeling ok but today not ok.
When will this oscillating ok or not ok ends.

Today Five of Clubs in Mars. I got agitated at N's mail. He got really high handed tone. When M called me I just didnt want to talk. I started to draft the mail when I see M also try to push off.
Anyway, I remembered today is Mars. So I didn't keep send the mail. Mmm, Nines
Then he responded and this time mellowed down. There settled.

Aiyah. I was in psychological and not existential. Father, thanks for bringing me back. Amen.

Despite my restlessness I was able to mail out to the newspaper contact, eventhough I m not sure. I just know I can act out of intelligence instead of my emotion.

Father, psychological is not real. Then all my intermittent tots and perception that the past is not over may also be not real.

What is real; is that it is over and I m ready for new love.
What is psychological; is that it is not truly over.

So even at psychological; just a little finger holding on. Doesn't mean it is not over.

After writing this. A big breathes flows out and mind silence for a moment. All my psychological is truly not real.

Using my intelligence still can't overcome it. But using love I know I can. Amen.

Soul
Now uploading A New earth and read this.

A New Earth.
Rather, than being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness.  If there is awareness in you, you no longer need to believe in every thought you think. It is an old thought, no more.
Awareness means Presence, and only Presence can dissolve the unconscious past in you.  The truth is that you need to say yes to suffering before you can transcend it.

Soul
Yea, I am back.
It was just an old tots, no more than an old tot.
It is truly complete for me but the wheel of mind is running on for a little while more.
I need not be disturbed.
I need not worry
I just need to be present.
Father, I am truly no longer the slave of the mind.
Amen.