Finally understood my tots are actually compulsions

Aug 27 eve 1
Today I suddenly feel myself slimmer as if body gone down

Went home in the evening and weighed myself. I was pleasantly surprised that my weight is now 58.7 kg. Earlier I tot I was still at 60 kg and was aiming was 57 kg with the kettle ball. But now shifted my goal to 55kg instead.

Sadhguru
The essential possibility of being a human is that we can act of our intelligence, love and compassion, rather than out of compulsions.

Soul
I used to wonder about the meaning. Now after 5 years I finally understood the meaning of compulsion.

I can act out of intelligence instead of keep on going back to the past. I can love myself instead of compulsively setting negative expectation.
I can eat out of intelligence instead of compulsive eating for taste and pleasure.

Father, food has lost its emotional content for me. Hence I need not act solely from compulsions. Sometimes I can act from intelligence.

As for the past, my compulsive negative tots no longer has a hold on me. I can now change tot out of love and compassion for myself. Amen.

Still not so great but I remember Tim Ferris's 5 times policy. Have not looked at the FB contacts for the past 3 days. Two more days to go before I hit 5; it would be a breeze then. I got myself addicted and I can get myself unaddicted.