I am not yet the master of my mind; but definitely no longer its slave.

Aug 14
Woke up feeling good. Tot of the miracle yesterday. Yesterday night when I went to bed I was laughing again.
Wake up 7.20 am to do my practice. Surya kriya was good. Breathing was nice with arashidharna position. Shakti was good but right feet was bit painful. Shambavi was good. Ended with silent contentment.
Sitting in arashidharna posture. Wish I could sit longer but my sister need the tables in my store room.
Tots of Z comes in intermittently. I just counter and said we will love again. I m not as affected as before.
 I may not master my mind but I m no longer its slave. I need not believe what mind says especially after yesterday miracle.

Tots come in on the break up. Trying to blame me; asking why? I just counter that we deserve better. That's why break up.

Met two ex colleagues. I even recommend Isha kriya to them and to their office. I am finally opening up.

Today I am affirmed not to listen to my mind especially when it is giving negative tots.

Ace of Clubs in Mars
Strong desire of knowledge of some kind or a birth of new idea, plan or way of communicating with the world around us.
This is a beginning of some sort.

Not sure. Just happen to see Z in FB but no more reaction on my side.

Was updating my blog and saw this on journal dated 3 July

The Power of Now
The acceptance of suffering is a journey into death.
Feeling deep pain, allowing it to be, taking your attention into it, is to enter death consciously.
When you have died this death, you realise there is no death - there is nothing to fear.

Soul
Thats exactly the same message as Osho's Sorrow card.
I am glad i didn't listen to others who asked me to snap out of it.
I am glad I had all the Masters giving me courage to continue with the journey, to love Z in spite of all, and finally to end it when it is time.
Everything happens when I am ready.
I no longer need to search, to accelerate the finding. I am letting come on its own time, which is my time too.
Father, I am finally learning to go with the flow.