Ending of lifetime challenge, Seven of Hearts

Aug 13 morn
The Secret of Shambhala
Your prayer energy should come from ur divine connection within and flow out in front of u, bringing forth the expected synchronicity and uplifting everyone it touches into his or her higher self. In this way it maximises the mysterious evolution of our lives, and the awareness and completion of our individual missions on this planet.
Unfortunately we hit bumps in the road, challenges that brings on a state of fear, which brings on doubt and thus collapses our fields. Worse, this fear can bring on negative images, bad expectations, which can help to create what we fear in our lives.
What we must learn now is a way of anchoring ur higher energy so that u stay in the positive flow more often.

Soul
Exactly described my Seven of Hearts. My Outsider card that I carried with me.
Thanks to tools from Isha, Osho and 7thunders, I have finally opened the unlocked door. I can now see rainbow in my relationships. Amen.
Father, I think I also overcome my Saturn Seven of Clubs. No longer have auto negative tots. Despite the debilitating circumstances I can now see the gift.

The Secret of Shambhala
The problem with fear is that it can be very subtle and sneak up on us quickly. U see, ur fear image is always about some outcome we don't want.
We fear failing, embarrassing ourselves or our families, losing our freedom or losing someone we love, or our own lives.
The difficult part is that when we begin to feel such fear, it often turns into anger, and we use this anger to martial our forces and fight back against whoever we feel is the threat.

Soul
Exactly my Outsider Card and Fighting card.
I got this card when I walked out on Z. I never asked him but he could have feel bad on this. Perhaps that's why the quick rebound for the gal. But its over, meant to happen.

This again go back to my logic. Or perhaps its from A course in Miracles.
Anger
Hurt
Guilt
Fear
Love.

The Secret of Shambhala
Whether we are feeling fear or anger, we have to realise that these emotions comes from one source: those aspects of our lives we want to hold on to.
The legend says since fear and anger comes from being concerned that we are going to lose something, the way to avoid these emotions is to be detached from all outcomes.

Soul
Father, two weeks ago when i realised I was still indirectly holding on by peeking into Z's profile. I just delete his contact cos I don't trust my mind and no one shall have such hold on me. I had to cut free, liberate myself. I had Mars card of Five of Diamonds. Not one day was I not thankful.

The secret of Shambhala
The legends would say that at the same time we set our fields to expect just the right intuitions and events to guide us, we should detach totally from any particular outcome. The importance of detachment is the great message of the Buddha

Soul
Many have misinterpreted that detachment is the first step and hence renouncement.
The best way is to go for what u truly want and yet not be attached to the outcome.
In a way that's me. I got what I want from Z, a physical opening but I got attached and wanted to have emotional opening but Z is not the one. He cannot help to open me as his emotion is also closed. Another heart gal would open him and his wife is most likely combination of Hearts and Clubs. Amen.

The secret of Shambhala
What we get in life is always slightly different from what we want anyway.
To be detached is to realise that there is always a higher purpose that can be found in any event, in any outcome. We can always find a silver lining, a positive meaning, that we can build on.

Soul
True. In Sorrow, we can be transformed when we detached from outcome.
Just like me seeing the ending of Seven of Hearts. And now can see rainbow ahead.

The secret of Shambhala
Every bad thing that happens to us occurs because we missed some synchronicity opportunity to avoid it.

Soul
True. I draw The Outsider card on the break up day. I tried to hold back my emotions but I couldn't as too much sadness was suppressed and it explodes.
On Z, he has Pluto challenge of Five of Clubs and result is Queen of Diamonds. He has some married friends who urge him not to go for standard family life but he ignored it.
That's why I said I take responsibility.

The secret of Shambhala
If we can stay strong, always expecting the positive, whether the outcome was exactly what we tot or not, then miracles begin to happen.

Soul
While I stayed strong and hope for positive but my expectation was negative.
And Z's will is too much for any synchronicity to go in. He stay true to his planned scripts. He is a controlled freak, same like me but different.
I can't let my unconscious leads me. He can't let external, especially women to lead him, except for his mom.
We did what we know best at that time. I couldn't have overcome my Outsider card. He couldn't change his mind.

Father, true ending of Seven of Hearts.