Ending my 1st karma card in Ruling - Second of Diamonds

Aug 19 aft
Father, a tot came. Slowly but surely my parameter is coming in.  I got hope for my RA.

As for S, once again trying to put a new person as 'better' than me. Saying even a stranger won't do this, and me a so called friend. Well, enough is enough. I have paid enough to her. Finally completing my Ace of Diamonds karma.
After a long journey I m back.

I know both S and W is in their psychological mode. So the more I need to be in existential mode. And their behaviour further strengthen my resolve to be in existential mode.

The secret of Shambhala
Fear always brings the guardians closer, if we can still maintain our faith to some degrees. It is hate that drives them away.

Soul
I can relate to that.

Hate
Anger
Hurt
Guilt
Fear
Love

Fear is the next level to Love. So easy to cross over to Love and vice versa. Anger and Hate is so far apart from Love.
That's why I always self contemplate, going into the fear. I knew after fear is love.