Psychological vs Existential

Aug 18

A tot came, Sadhguru said Psychology is fleeting.
Rship comes and go. It just a matter of whether people wants to play with u or not.

Went for my morning walk in the park. In the first cycle I couldn't see the beauty of nature. I was lost in my mind, thinking about office matters, friendships, colleagues and etc. In the second cycle, I woke up and said time to be here and suddenly I sang Karpura Gauram repeatedly. I can see the beauty of trees and grass. Then a tot occurred to me in the first cycle I was in my mind, not here. In my mind means psychological and here means existential.

When I m in existence, I can see the real world as it is. In psychology, it is just an illusion, just my mind playing its own drama.

For years I was afraid of being drown, afraid of water. Always got panic attack, wants to swim to safety. Finally once I was not in my mind, I can truly see the water. I can float. I am enjoying the water, it carries me effortlessly.
So that's the difference between psychological experience vs existential experience.
When I m in existence I can enjoy the nature. When I m in psychological, I am in fear, I am lost in my tots, I become paralysed.

The same as my mental drama on Z, it is not even with Z cos he was not here. It was just psychological, not existential.

Father, from now onward I will bring myself back to existential. Psychological is not real, it may be pleasurable and it may also be painful. Continue in psychological will make me disconnected from existence.

I was never keen on the technical term of existence. Sadhguru used this phrase a lot. But only in this video of Tantra, he uses it to compare with psychological.
And just yesterday I experienced enjoyment in water for second time in my life time of 46 years, after nearly 24 years of trying to swim.

Today I was lost in my mind and couldn't see the beauty. And then when I come back I can see the beauty of nature.

Father, thank you so much. What a journey.

So, it is all a play. I was playing in my mind and got lost in the drama. When I bring myself back to existence, psychological evaporate.